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This one doesn't have a title....it's my darker side [Jul. 11th, 2007|04:00 am]

she cringes insides
of a hollow, empty shell.
she is barely able
to stand herself

she wakes up each morning
hoping to die
The time will come soon
but noone knows why

She crawls out of bed
and she thinks, why should I?
I should just end it
Who would care if I die?

so she holds up the bottle
reads the label, locks the door
nobody to distract her
while passing out on the floor

She wakes up in a room
bathed in bright light
you gave them one hell of a scare
and put up quite a fight

she's o'ding says the doctor
on vitamin pills
they make your heart race
to give you a thrill

they make you happy
if only for a while
to numb the pain
to remind her to smile

There's nothing insdie
the hollow empty shell
hanging on by sheer hope
as she goes through helll

she can see
for the first time
she has friends
a lifeline

someone to tell her
she is beautiful inside as well as out
someone to hold her
who knows all about

the suffering she's handled
every single day for years
starving for atrtention
and choking on tears

now they all know
what a shame it's too late
for this girl is gone now
and she died full of hate

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He's That Guy [Jul. 11th, 2007|03:57 am]

He's that guy
that you don't see
Because your too busy
trying to be

someone you think
the rest will adore
what you don't understand
is you are worth so much more

He speaks your name
you pretend you don't hear
you laugh and stare
He wishes he could disappear

like a shadow on the wall
a face lost in time
you sift through your memories
you can't seem to find

The boy who would call you
everyday for a date
but your pride wouldn't allow
you to choose your own fate

Happiness could have been
with him by your side
but you messed it all up
when you chose your pride

You decided not
too see what he could be
now you suffer in silence
while it's him and me

you had your chance girl
and I have to say
you made your bed
and an eternity you'll lay

in regret filled unhappiness
while the two of us play
I hope you find your soul mate
but that guy, he's mine and forever we'll stay!

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Crystal Sapphire [Jul. 11th, 2007|03:54 am]

Crystal sapphire sparkling bright
Emotion slowly washes over me
Waves of tenderness and love excite
Silent vows of protection to be
Ignited like fire inside a heart of ice
Melting frozen stone into pools of desire
Devotion makes you pay the price
A painful longing for crystal sapphire
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Salty Tears [Jul. 11th, 2007|03:52 am]
A heart beat and nothing more
A whisper of wind off of a distant shore
Ocean waves crashing upon solid rock
misty breeze and sea salt beating the dock
One set of footprints, maybe two but no more
Gods and fates play here, merging souls into the shore

As thunder crashes, heat intesifies inside
Electricity expands and explodes inside the mind
Moonlight has enchanted and drawn together once again
The heart and soul of lovers, a lady of the sea and man

Forever is forbidden, secret bonding brings the tears
For this could be the final time ocean meets the pier
Forever for eternity and within a moments wake
Eternity becomes never, salt of tears is all you taste
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How Kinky Are You? [Jun. 5th, 2007|11:43 am]
[Locale |Home]
[Emotions |satisfiedsatisfied]
[Tunes |Animal I Have Become -- Three Days Grace]

You scored as Chains/Handcuffs, Your turn on is handcuffs and chains. You like being cuffed/chained to the bed, or cuffing/chaining your partner down. You love the pure ectasy of being in complete control... or letting someone else have complete control over you. Sex isn't sex without control.







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What's Your Kinky Turn On?
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Shattered Dreams [Jun. 1st, 2007|01:30 am]
[Emotions |touchedtouched]

Lockney High School students got an "up close and personal" look at "Shattered Dreams" during an emotional two day demonstration of the consequences of drinking and driving on young lives.

The "Shattered Dreams" program was organized by Justice of the Peace Michelle Araujo with the help of numerous law enforcement and EMS personnel, as well as counselors, parents, and school officials.

"Shattered Dreams" began on Monday, April 25, with selected students being taken from their classes by the "Grim Reaper". As the teenager is led away their "obituary" is read over the loud speaker. The obituaries were written by parents.

The youth, who are part of the "Living Dead", represent teenagers killed by drunk drivers.

Thirty "Living" students participated in the program. The "Living Dead" are not returned to class for 24 hours in an effort to impress on friends what it would be like without their friends in class.

Also on Monday morning a realistic two car collision was staged at the intersection near LHS. Professional make-up artists prepared the bloody injuries.

One student, Rance Schumacher, was flown from the scene in an Aerocare helicopter and later pronounced dead at the hospital.

Two other students, Graden Long and Jaime Ledesma, were "killed" at the wreck. Their bloody bodies were laid out on the ground for the students to see and later transported away from the scene in the Moore Rose White Funeral Home hearse.

A drunk driver, LHS Senior Meagan Stapp, was arrested at the scene (after field sobriety tests by a DPS Trooper), and booked into jail. She was later put through an emotional trial including testimony from a mother, Tracy Long, describing what her life would be like without her son, Graden.

Injured and transported by ambulance were: Emily Mercado, Rebekah Thornton, Landon Cotham, and Alyssa Poindexter.

Poindexter also dies at the hospital. Thornton is charged with Public Intoxication and Open Container. Cotham is also charged with Minor in Possession and Minor Consumption.

At the scene of the accident EMS, Fire Department, and Law Enforcement worked feverishly to free bodies from wreckage. Their efforts included cutting cars apart with the "Jaws of Life".

Justice of the Peace Araujo had to pull sheets back from bodies and pronounce them dead.

Students circled the accident and watched the proceedings from the sidelines.

Monday night the "Living Dead" were kept away from family. Counselors stayed with the youth all night and discussed the days events. The teens were told to write a letter to their parents, telling them what they wished they could have said before they "died."

Two of these letters were read at an emotional assembly on Tuesday morning, and are including in this week's paper.

At the assembly the "Living Dead" sat on the gym floor next to an open casket, and faced their friends in the bleachers.

Several speakers addressed the assembly, including DPS Sgt. Garcia, Trooper Heath Parker, District Attorney Becky McPherson, DPS Sgt. Gonzales, Trooper Phil Vandygriff, and Baptist Youth Pastor Chad Cook.

Trooper Parker spoke of the personal affect a drunk driver had had on his family after he was called to investigate a four fatality accident. One of the fatalities was his own sister. "I had to walk up to check the fatalities," said Parker. "I thought I recognized one of them and it turned out to be my sister. I still remember the frost on the ground where she was lying, how her hair looked and what she was wearing. Then I had to call my mother and tell her.

"My sister made a bad decision. She had no alcohol in her system, but she chose to get in a car with someone who was drinking."

A Crosbyton student, Jason Trevino spoke of losing his brother, Andrew, to a drunk driver. "He was coming home from work and a drunk driver was driving on the wrong side of the road on the loop. He hit my brother head on and broke his neck. My cousin was in the car and his legs were shattered."

One side of the gyms' bleacher rails were covered with posters made by each "Living Dead". The posters included pictures throughout their own lives and their own printed obituary.

The assembly ended with teary eyed "Living Dead" and parents hugging and discussing the lessons learned from the Shattered Dreams program.

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A strangers call [May. 31st, 2007|05:57 am]
[Emotions |depresseddepressed]

   So I met this guy on a chat room I decided to check out last night because I was UBER bored. Anyway, he seemed nice at first and then he became a real asshole. He asked for my myspace addy and rushed me for it. Then when he got it he rushed me to add him. I did being polite I decided that maybe he was just really tired. He then proceeded to insult me in said public chat and then message me on myspace to insult me some more. He told me I was ugly, fat and had a nasty smile. I know I have flaws but my god! This hurt a lot. Especially coming from some stupid kid who obviously has no life other then joining chat's to pick up women. I know others opinions shouldn't matter but it does and it bothers me. He said I needed to lose about 15 or more pounds to look good. WTF??? I mean I know I am not stick skinny but I like to think I am decent....he made me feel like shit. Anyway, I just thought I would rant on about that....thanks for listening. 

Talk to you later

I am going to go finish my pathetic crying now

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Randomness [May. 31st, 2007|02:55 am]
[Emotions |awakeawake]

Q: Been arrested?--> No

Q: You like someone?--> OMG, Yes....but I can't have him :(

Q: Held a snake?--> Yes and I also had a Boa wrapped around my neck before!!! THAT was cool

Q: Been suspended from school?--> No, but I probably should have been

Q: Been fired from a job?--> Yes

Q: Sang karaoke?--> Yes for Justin's wedding actually

Q: Done something you told yourself you wouldn't?--> Yes, I do it at least once a week.

Q: Laughed until you started crying? Hahahaha yes, that is not hard when I hang out with goofy friends like Angela

Q: Caught a snowflake on your tongue?--> Yes

Q: Sat on a roof top? OMG!!! Leah and I used to sit on her roof top to watch the Dominion fireworks!!!!!

Q: Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on? --> OMG Yes, my sister and my neighbours last year. My four year old neice laughed her butt off at me as well. lol

Q: Broken a bone? no, but I broke my thumb....ligaments torn completely in two...I am proud of that one!!!

Q: Shaved your head? Not a chance in hell ::covers head and winces::

Q: Played a prank on someone?--> OMFG Yes.

Q: Made a girlfriend/boyfriend cry?--> No, I don't like to see guys cry, it breaks my heart.

Q: Shot a gun? No, they frighten me

Q: Donated Blood? Yes and I will do it again....provided my blood is any good.

Q: Had your heart broken? Yes
Q: Broken someone's heart? Yes I have


1. You hung out with? Angela
2. last person you texted? Either Eddie or Wingsy
3. You were in a car with? Angela
4. Went to the movies with? Leah
5. Went to the mall with? Angela
6. You talked to on the phone? My mom
7. Made you laugh? Angela when we were on our walk.
8. You hugged? Patrick


1. Be serious or be funny? I have to be both
2. Die in a fire or get shot? Ummm....live!?


1. Sun or moon? Moon
2. Winter or Fall? Fall
3. Left or right? Left
4. Sunny or rainy? Summer rain
5. Where do you live? In a house
6. Do you want to get married? Someday
7. Do you twirl your spaghetti or cut it? I twirl it
8. Do You Cook? Yes sometimes
9. Current mood? Excited


1. Kissed someone? No
2. Sang? Yes I have
3. Been hugged? I don't remember.....depends on the last time I seen Patrick lol.


--- have you ever ---


Stolen something?
Yes....when I was five lol

Done drugs?

Gotten drunk?
Yes I have lol

Eaten an entire box of Oreos?
Yes I have, sadly enough

Been dumped?

Had someone be unfaithful to you?
Yes, unfortunately

Hiked up a mountain?

Stayed home on Saturday night, just because?
Yes I stay home every weekend....I am a wal lflower what can I say....the last to get a date and the one everybpdy forgets :(

Seen the White House?

Seen the Eiffel Tower?
OMG No but I WILL someday.

Try smoking?
Didn't we go over this?

Played monopoly?

Seen Titanic?
I love that movie

Kissed someone?
Yes I have but it has been a long time

Tried a weight loss program?

Jumped on a trampoline?

Colored in a coloring book (and had fun)?
Yes I have and sometimes still do

Had a bubble bath?

Been on a plane?

Been on a boat?
Yes, a cruise ship....GORGEOUS!!!!!!!

Been on a train?
No, but I would love to.

Been in a car accident?
not really, we avoided it actually

Ridden an elephant?
No, I don't think so...I had the chance but I was too afraid lol.

Made a web page?
Several actually

Played with Barbies?
I hate Barbies but yeah

Stay up all night?
Yes all the time

Shoved stuff under your bed to make your room look clean?
Lol hahaha yes!!!

Called a psychic or sex hotline?
No but we called Teledirect!!!!!

Watched Jerry Springer?
Yes, and I am ashamed lol .

Gotten in trouble for talking in class?
Everyday in grade 11 Biology, grade 12 History and grade 11 English

Been afraid of the dark?
Yes, and I still am to a certain extent....it all depends on where I am....if I am camping in the woods then I am usually terrified. I blame the media and damn CSI and horror movies lol

Been in the hospital (not visiting)?
Yes too many times to count

Had stitches?
Yes, on my foot and in my butt hahaha top that!!!

Dumped someone and regretted it?
Oh yes.

Gone out with more than one person at a time?
Only once

yeayes but only about non important issues

Been arrested?
ummm....are you paying attention?

Fallen asleep in class?
Yes!!! Grade 12 Science class I believe, and I got detention for it as well.

Gotten in trouble in class?
Yes I was a ghost but I was bad lol

Used food for something other than to eat?

Met a celebrity?

Broken the law?

Ever loved someone so much it made you cry?
Yes unfortunately and it sucks because it is always the ones you cannot have that you want the most

Hated yourself?

Been brokenhearted?

Broken someone's heart?
Yes, I KNOW I have

Done something really stupid?

Hurt a friend?
Yes I have

Broken a bone?
Honestly now.....come on!

Ever had a crush on a teacher?
Karl McNeil!!!!!! Junior High Science teacher....Oh what a beautiful man he is....and what an ass!!!!!! Yummmm
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Love Type [May. 31st, 2007|02:50 am]
[Emotions |amusedamused]

Your Love Type: ISFP

The Artist

In love, you feel deeply and experience intense emotions.
For you, sex is serious. It's how you best express your feelings.

Overall, you are laid back, warm, and a good listener.
However, you tend to seem lazy and disinterested sometimes.

Best matches: ESFJ and ENFJ

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More more more [May. 27th, 2007|04:29 pm]
[Emotions |cheerfulcheerful]

American Cities That Best Fit You:

75% Washington, DC

70% San Francisco

60% Boston

55% Atlanta

55% Honolulu

Your Lust Quotient: 67%

You are a very lustful person - and it sometimes gets the better of you!
You know how to hold back, but you hardly ever do.

Men See You As Playful

Men want a challenge and you are the perfect playmate
You know how to push men's buttons and attract a wide range of guys
You enjoy living and loving - it's one of your most attractive qualities
Men are often consumed with desire for you, and you love that!

Your Famous Movie Kiss is from Gone With The Wind

"Great balls of fire. Don't bother me anymore, and don't call me sugar."
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